Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Day 11:
sorry ytd was too busy, so forgot to blog. well, didnt know whether you'll read or not anyway. btw! we are like really texting like a friend. quite naturally? but sometimes, u still chose to not reply me. oh wells, got your text i already very contented le. just need it to keep me going for the time being. Baby, i just love you the way you are. i miss you so much.
your smile made the difference.
--2:26 AM--
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Day 9:
today i confessed to you again.. but i guess i failed. and i caused trouble for myself that you ignored me already.. i really rather you know my feelings, then i hid all the words myself.. i'm really glad you said you still like me. i really love you. if a 20 months relationship is forgotten so easily, that wont be true love anymore. tmr is 30th. supposed to be our 21st month. i dont wanna let you go. i thought being friends with u can make u feel better and will not forget about me. but i guess i made it worst. my annoyance has caused u to dislike me even more. why is my heart so pain... ):
you give me strength, you give me hope, you give me someone to love someone to hold. i've never felt this warmth when i'm in your arms.. only in your arms..
your smile made the difference.
--5:32 AM--
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Day 8: wow, cant believe we never meet for 8 days already. ): i still miss you as usual~ and i still cannot dont text u. even gonna talk rubbish, talk crap, i also want to text with you. your text is just my pillar, holding me on, prevent me to collapse. i wish we could take photos like before again. to keep track of our memories, never delete our photos so easily, never just leave our memories at the back your head. it is not easy for us to come this far. i dont wanna just give you up and after that reject in what i did. i believe you are the guy i want spend my life with. i want to have our little house and play whenever we want. whatever u like, i'm not controlling u anymore. i know ur toys accompany u to grow up, i wont stop u in doing anything. everyone makes mistakes, but you dont have to give up our relationship just like that.. its a waste. ): i miss you. especially when today is Saturday. ): terribly miss..
your smile made the difference.
--12:08 AM--
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Day 6
dear blog. i think i'm the most stupid girl in the world. only i bother to type all these out, but the guy doesnt even care. how stupid can i go? i see his posts on the drama, its so obvious that he want to post it for the girl to like them. obviously its the show that she likes. well, i'm a loser. i cant control him in doing anything now.. i felt so helpless.. could you help me? i want to forget him.. i dont want to be the annoying and busybody person anymore.. i dont want to keep asking who he go out with, where he go,what is he doing.. even i felt i'm so annoying.. why.. why am i being like this.. can something just stop me from doing all these? i just wanna lead my own life. i want my life. not the life that depend on him to live, depend on him to move on.. i dont want this anymore. i'm terrible.
your smile made the difference.
--5:15 AM--
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
hi blog.. i'm a loner.. i depend on his text to survive, to live, to smile. without his text, i feel i'm not myself.. why will this happened to me.. being friends, i still feel like i'm his girlf. when he didnt reply, i'll think of him. when he reply slow, i'll worry am i too busybody or care too much.. i wanted to slowly let him go, but how do i really do it? i still miss him so much.. i still hope that i can see him again.. even he nv look at me, i still like to see his face.. i love him so much. Dear god, could u just help me get him back.. ):
your smile made the difference.
--6:19 AM--
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Day 4:
Hi friend, i'm rather busy with my assignments, but not to forget i have you to vent.. or rather not, i missed you.. D: but i'm so glad u willing to reply me.. though i can see its not very willingly, but at least u still bothered to reply. thank you.. i donno how i can express my feelings, but i feel really good being ur friend as well. though its a huge difference in being a girlf, but at least i can see your text, i'm v happy le. thank you. and tmr is your test! oral test and presentation? jiayou ya!! i'll always be at a corner, supporting u always.. whether u need encouragement or a hug of console or a celebration of kisses. i'm most willing to give it to you. ALL THE WAYYY!!
your smile made the difference.
--6:22 AM--
Monday, July 23, 2012
this blog will become my good friend, to wait for me to let you go, and at the same time, wait for you to be back.. i dont know where i get the courage to say i want to be friends with u. perhaps i just dont wanna lose contact with you. i keep telling myself to let you go, but there will always be some things that held me back. why will this happen to me.. whenever i typed this blog, my tears will drop.. i miss you baby, i really wish one day you'll return.. and i 'll hug you tight, hold you tight, and not let you go again..
your smile made the difference.
--3:35 AM--
Saturday, July 21, 2012
the young us.. i wish that one that we can go back to the same old place, even get bitten by mosquitoes,but the place where it belongs to both of us, and our eyes are only on the both of us. i wanna spend more time with you to compensate what i've not given you. i want to give you all the love you required, all the care you need and all the warmth you long for.. i dont know whether you drew all the pictures are for me or other girls, but i stubbornly choose to believe its for me. its me that you're missing and love. because its how i feel now. i miss you. i dont wanna sleep at night because whenever i close my eyes, its all you. i'm afraid to wake up in the morning because i dont wanna face the reality. i dont want to wake up not receiving your text, dont want to wake up realizing you're no longer my boy. i miss calling you bibi, i miss everything that belongs to you. i know you're suffering, but i dont wish to see you drinking and torturing yourself. i thought u can live well without me, but my heart hurts even more when i realised actually you're not.
baby, i just hope you can come back to me when u're ready and we'll spend the rest of our lives together without thinking what will be happening in the future, but only treasure the present.
your smile made the difference.
--10:30 PM--
i miss us, i miss you.. i know u alr forgot about our blog. i also suddenly just thought of it. i got lots to say, thats why i'm writing it here..
baby, i had a good time with you in these 20 months. we broke up and patch, and i thought we'll be able to last till we marry, till we're old. i just wanna keep the promises you made in my heart, to secure it and hoping that one day u'll be back and continue your promises with me.. i dont wanna wake up in my fairytales, in my sweet dreams, because i believe you'll be back to continue the journey in my dream. i want to be in your arms when we sleep, lie on your shoulder when i'm tired, listen to your jokes when i'm feeling sad, looking at you when i miss you, smell you like i'm a drug addict. i dont want our times to end here. i want to spend my whole life with you, regardless of poor or sickness or whatever, i only want you.
perhaps i'm a unreasonable girl to you, but please know, all i want is only your love. i only want u to text me when u free, say u love and miss me when u have nothing to do, hug me when u need warmth, kiss me when u feel like it.
just wanna tell you, i love you and i'll always do.
your smile made the difference.
--7:53 AM--
