i am going to type a super long post this time. gonna type out all out memories. everyday a bit a bit.. make it like a story.
10th Sept: the first time we chat on facebook. you ask me about my sch and all, and at the end of the convo, we exchanged numbers. (:
from that day, everyday we text a few messages because u have limited messages. we even started our "X-topic" and you drew me a first drawing naming "X-topic"
after almost 1 month, we meet for the first time at city hall mrt.. the first time i see you, i alr have a little feeling for you.. we bought tickets for movie, and end up, a couple seat.. we're both so awkward at that moment. but still, finished the movie. lol. after movie, you teach me about cut and paste and do a nice art for my friend too. this is the first time i learn art from a guy. and your seriousness in doing art attracted me.. at that moment, i looked at you secretly, want to have more of this session with you..
i confessed my love for you first 1 week before our next meeting. you did not give me an answer yet, and asked me to look forward to it. i was afraid and nervous until on that day, 30th October 2010, you held my hand when we meet, the whole of that day you held on to my hand. your sweaty palm, your pumping heart.. i remembered vividly.. we walked to helix bridge after dinner, and you went crazy and jump up and down and laugh happily. you cant believe that you got a girlfriend. you asked me to tell you that its true, you're not dreaming. you asked me one more time to be your girlfriend when we're sitting at the bench, and that day i realised, i'm the happiest girl in the world.. you sent me to tpy interchange. we had our first hug and first kiss behind the wall.. and went home happily. you drew me a nice drawing once again.. "Dear and Sweety"
We had good moments from that day.. going to Botanist garden and many other places.. until one day, 27 November 2010, i told you i cant give you what you wanted after you came back from Malaysia, you asked me to find other guy that is better than you. that day, i was very sad and disappointed. i donno you being with me is just to have that. you ignored me, tried nt to reply my msg. and we stopped texting for a few days.. you donno how much i cried from that day.. until one day i decided to text you again and wish you good luck for your exams and you replied. and you also wished me good luck for my exams. we talked about our broke up again.. and we told each other what we wanted and i tell you what i can do. i gave you time to think while i go thailand. an d withing 2 days, you asked me to text you when i come back. i was so nervous. i was afraid of your answer. why izzit always me that is waiting for your answer?? ): in the end, you told me you're willing to wait. i was so happy.. we got back together on 17 December 2010.. <3 that day i wished you'll never leave me again.. and you promised me that you wont leave me again too.
Asking you again and again whether you really love me, not to leave me again, is because i really afraid you'll dont want me again.. i really trust you so much.. you celebrate my birthdayy with me, giving me surprise,and made the most beautiful card for me.. i celebrated your birthday with you even if i have exams. asking your sister for help, going buy cake secretly, just want you to have a memorable birthday.. i just love you so much. Not only 1 birthdays, but we celebrated 2 years birthday tgt.. you said there will be many years to come.. but where is it?? i'm so afraid when my 20th Birthday come. because all i wanted is only you..
your smile made the difference.
--11:06 PM--
